In the moment
I act like there’s a gun to my head
One wrong move and
Boom
I’m gone
Too serious
I know that
I tried to change it
I’m changing it
I’ve become a goofy self
A “funny” guy
That’s really me?
Let’s be real
I live in the skies
I go home and
My thoughts bring me down from my highs
I wish I could stay high
Staying down
Makes me want to go up
Now what?
You good zhu?
Don’t really know what to tell you
What’s life?
If I never grow up
I always said I felt like a grown up
Taking care of my parents like I know how to speak English at the age of 5
Did I have a choice?
Not really
Have I grown up?
I
I hope so
Year 23 and
The story is changing
I better be the one writing
Before my story becomes a life not worth telling
Mistakes are a part of life
Everyone makes them
But for me
I cannot forget them
Mistakes live in my head
Replaying like I should’ve said this or
I should’ve done this instead
Regretting moments
Not worth mentioning
Story of my life
I wish I could rewrite it
I tell myself I need to do better each and every time
I’m doing fine
But in my mind
It’s not right
It’s not fine
Then I go at it again
Stuck in a loop
Telling myself I’m not enough
But I’m doing fine
