Been a long year
First half of the year,
I got too excited
Felt like I found a new piece of me in 23 and
Got burnt out from it
Somehow twisted the vision from reality
Feels like I always do this
Feel excited about one thing,
Be super passionate for the first 3 months,
Break apart the next 3 months,
Find myself in need of a 1 month recovery,
Find out whats wrong,
Discover it was me all along
Fix the mindset,
Move on,
Repeat
The cycle of life
Year after year
I’m not saying it’s bad
I’m not saying it’s good either
But overall,
What’s most important is learning
Learning to understand myself
Being true to who I am
Reflecting to be a better me each and every year
(Keeping it real)
We can’t be at our best everyday
But we can always try
And that’s what matters most
Trying to be the best
The journey
The past leads to the present
Moments can be forgotten
Memories can fade but
It’s important to never forget where I came from
Began this year thinking I was someone new
Turned out I just needed to be me but better
Can’t turn the page and never look back
The past I’ll have to carry
The past I can carry
Learning to write differently is something new
Something I constantly have to do
I can’t move on from the past
If I never let go of things that never last
Goodbyes were never easy
I hate to let people go
Thinking I shoulda cherished them more
I always think I could do more
Always could do more
I’ve learned year after year though
Enough is enough
Learning to let go of my past self
I’ve had enough of all this bickering inside
All the pressure I put on myself
All the times I questioned for better days
All the time I stressed about making it through the alleyway
The dark nights
I’ve learned to let go
No one said life was easy
So everyday
I’ve learned after all these years
I need to take it easy
On myself
On my friends
On my family
On my coworkers
On my past
On my future
On the random people I meet online
In person
In class
I need to take it easy on my life
Life is hard
But I believe I can make it easy
Nothing was ever simple but we make it through day in day out
Don’t need to be brand new
Just gotta be you
Zhu
Keeping it real
This is the cycle of life
Year after year
I’ll never forget