Society tells you to be who you are
Being who you are
May be thinking suicide day by day
Depression has taken possession
Insecurities has enveloped your progression
You don’t think you will make it
Yet I am here to stop the deterioration
This poem is about me
But the message is about us
Now follow Zhu
As he pieces his identity
Z
The one who bleeds this poetry
Society told me
Family is the people who give birth to you
Mom and dad
Yet I only saw them as
Mother and father
Friends were the closest people to me
My parents became my worst enemies
The same thing society calls family
I’ve always felt like they wanted me to die
My friends were the ones to keep me alive
Me family
Are the friends that challenge my thoughts and the very being of me
Society family
Trapped me in a cell of
You have to listen to me
I denied that
Traumatized myself to a certain degree
Didn’t realize it
Till I was captain of the tennis team
Got triggered by some stupid tennis coach
Dehumanizing my team
Built up a whole lot of emotions
I couldn’t keep in
Had to let it go
Now I was bleeding
Felt so much pain
Left my heart with the team
Lost my brain and almost everything
Couldn’t think straight
I was in an emotional state
Told some school staff
I needed some time off
Took my spring break a few days earlier
Dealing with some pain
I’ve never felt before
Discussed with a therapist
Discovered it as trauma
Realized it was a
Fall I had to take
A fall to find me
Left with broken pieces
My heart was left with a crack
Solved the whole puzzle
Each piece
Filled the gap
Without breaking apart
I would have never seen
The strongest connections inside of me
Emotionally
Mentally
Z connects
The two sides of my broken heart
Zhu could not complete
Finding pieces in the past
Zhu left behind
Breaking his heart
In order to find
Z’s
State of mind
This was me
This was who I found myself to be
