Piece by piece
My heart fell apart
The broken pieces of me
I carry through my poetry
Poetry saved me
Piece by piece
I’m broken
But I’m at peace
Peacefully piecing my broken pieces together
Emotions by emotions
Feelings by feelings
Memory by memory
Moment by moment
Small moments
Turn into lasting memories
Temporary things
Became the very
Foundation of my heart
I came from a dark place
My room
A dark room
A temporary world
Depression
Trauma
Suicide
The walls of my room
A broken heart
A broken Zhu
The only dim light
Within the room
I created
Zhu
Who became to be
A character in a play
A play we all know as
“Life”
With a smile on his face
To show outwardly
He’s happy
When inwardly
He’s depressed
Dark and lonely
My heart weak
My mind wandering
It feels like I’m breaking to pieces
It’s all happening inside of my head
A battle inside my mind
I was locked inside
Unlocking the walk from my past
Embracing the darkness inside my head
This was the key
To unlock
The lock
To my future ahead
The art of letting go
The balance of self control
Emotions I can’t control
Temporary moments
I let the demons control
Emotions they controlled
Just like how
A car can’t start
Without an engine
A fire can’t start
Without a spark
Zhu
Can’t live
Without an heart
If it wasn’t engraved with
Z
Torn between life or death
Suicidal thoughts
The roots of darkness
Destroying every part me
God’s love caught me when I thought I was dead
Working my heart
He sparked a light
In my dark night
This is the key to my drive
The spark of a fire
To become who I’m supposed to be
Heart surgery
God
I pray for you to rework my heart
Rework my brokenness
Let not my broken heart hurt people
But share with me your agape love
Share the light
Shined in Zhu
In his name
Amen
If it’s feeling pain
Let me grow my faith in you
Feeling my emotions
It’s something that is okay to do
A helmet with the hope of salvation
A breastplate of faith and love
The war is always in myself
A war battling with my lonely self
My inner demons
I battle within the
Walls I created from society
Boxing myself into a room
I let my insecurities define in me
The demons tried to kill me
A suicidal thought implanted in me
Suicidal thoughts
The rock bottom of me
I share my story
To piece my past together
Aligning the stars
For a brighter future
A clearer direction maybe
But not an answer
A process to enjoy
Because my life is on a timeline
But I get to live eternally
Through Jesus Christ himself
Falling deeper and deeper
Into the darkness
My heart shattered
To smaller and smaller pieces
Yet he still loves me
Piece by piece
He picks up all of my brokenness for me
He lifts me up when I am weak and
He’s only one prayer away
1 peter 5:8
The devil can’t take me away
My soul will live for God’s love
A love that shines brighter than any darkness
Knowing my dark days will always pass away
Breathe another breath
Live another moment
Z is at peace
Piece by piece
Zhushen broke apart
Zhu’s heart fell apart
The broken pieces of me
I carry in Z
God’s love in me
God saved me
Bringing peace
To every broken piece of Z
Piece by piece
