Before the page turns,
I always make sure to look back
To remind myself of where I’ve been
To remind myself of who I was and
Who I wanted to be
At the beginning of 22,
I wanted to look past my past myself
I wanted to look ahead for once
I wanted to feel peace from what my life had been
I wanted peace inside my mind
I wanted to feel like I had a piece of my mind
If I remember correctly,
Zhushen was born in 1999 and
Zhu was born in 2018
Years have gone by where I’ve been
Locked in my own room
Stuck in my own head
Zhushen was living in trauma
Zhu was trying to recover from that trauma
22
A year I found some peace
A year I tried to be Zhu
It took perspective for me to get out of my own room
It took me years
Before I could feel like Zhu
Before I found a smile fitting for me
It took me 22 to feel like me
Finally free
23
I hope to finally get out of my mind
I hope to finally feel like I could be me
I want to be able to build bridges to other worlds
I want to be able to find comfort in love
The love I’ve always ran away from
23
No more insecurities clogging my mind
No more losing pieces of myself to the old me
23
A year where pieces of my broken heart engraved with Z
Lives in peace
I’m ready for 23
I’m ready to be me
